A spread on the wall: April 2006

SWELL!

I have been going like a choo-choo train for the past many weeks. First, I decided to change my job, second, get a life, third, be smarter and more decisive.

Well, now at the end of all the major huffs and puffs, I am starting to reconsider my first goal, modify my second goal, still sticking to my third goal!

I don't know if I am in a major swell or my head just swelled...

For Goal Number 1:
To answer to myself and all my efforts, I did manage to get my portfolio done, considered seriously about which firm I would like to work for, mailed out 2 job application letters, went for one job interview yet turned down the job offer because the expectations on both sides doesn't work out quite well. Currently I am attracted to another firm but decided to think about it again. Major reason is because it's hard to want to work for a reputable firm and still expect to be able to knock off at half-past six every weekday plus no work on weekends to enjoy a life. I don't want to sell my life for a job...

For Goal Number 2:
I did change to a bold hairstyle which I quite like. I hope everyday when I stare into the mirror, my spirits will be lifted and I can carry on my spur with new energy. I put time aside for friends and myself. As you know, I reconnect with my old hobby of oil-painting. I want to bring back my passions for life and myself. In the effort towards the status of singlehood, I am still trying very hard. Mentally and emotionally, I have moved on. So that's good news. Bad news is, my previous (considered 'previous' or 'ex', but obviously not so to 'that' person) partner is still in a state of heavy denial and he is definitely not letting me GO...... even after all these months......arrrrrgghhhh....... I pray for divine intervention...

For Goal Number 3:
Currently I am more ready to voice myself without feeling shy. I am also more realistic about the way things go in this mortal world. Not cynical but definitely realistic. I feel this has been a good change.

2 weeks later...

Here's a peek at the remainders of the green chrysanthemums I bought 2 weeks ago :) I had transferred them from the kitchen sink (in the pic) to one of my elliptical plates. Currently the flowers are still happily floating on the water.

They are really hardy and strong. So far, they are the longest lasting flowers I had.

A Patch, A Mark, A Stain

I will be a student tomorrow ;)

...In an oil painting class, to be exact. Just went shopping for some basic materials today. I am a bit ambitious; I bought a medium-size canvas to start on. That will force myself to fill up the entire canvas and not give up halfway.

It's like going back to school again. Time is back on your side and painting is like something you can doodle on and on for hours, for days, for months. There is no finishing date. It all depends on you :)

I took art while I was in school. It has been 15 solid years since I touched my brushes. My dad is the one who started me on art classes. He says it will build up my patience, and art is a form of expression. I am glad he started me on it. Very glad :)))

~...Green Breeze...~...~...~

I was at the supermarket couple of days ago when I chanced upon my favourite flower :) Not the most common colour for a flower but it's my favourite favourite favourite, alright!!! I am not sure what kind of flower it is, but it sure resembles the chrysanthemum!

They are really uplifting for my spirits, especially when they manage to survive till now and still looks good. The pics were taken this morning. Aren't they Superb!

They are so cute, and so small. The diameter is the size of my little finger only. Their happy blooms are like little green pong-pongs, cheering me on. Cha-cha-cha, they seem to go. Cha-cha-cha... sprinkling the bright yellow-green dashes... in the air!

They are really sweet! I want them to be my wedding flowers (if I do get to meet my Mr Right in future). To be as cheery as I am on that day! :) Smiles