SWELL!
I have been going like a choo-choo train for the past many weeks. First, I decided to change my job, second, get a life, third, be smarter and more decisive.
Well, now at the end of all the major huffs and puffs, I am starting to reconsider my first goal, modify my second goal, still sticking to my third goal!
I don't know if I am in a major swell or my head just swelled...
For Goal Number 1:
To answer to myself and all my efforts, I did manage to get my portfolio done, considered seriously about which firm I would like to work for, mailed out 2 job application letters, went for one job interview yet turned down the job offer because the expectations on both sides doesn't work out quite well. Currently I am attracted to another firm but decided to think about it again. Major reason is because it's hard to want to work for a reputable firm and still expect to be able to knock off at half-past six every weekday plus no work on weekends to enjoy a life. I don't want to sell my life for a job...
For Goal Number 2:
I did change to a bold hairstyle which I quite like. I hope everyday when I stare into the mirror, my spirits will be lifted and I can carry on my spur with new energy. I put time aside for friends and myself. As you know, I reconnect with my old hobby of oil-painting. I want to bring back my passions for life and myself. In the effort towards the status of singlehood, I am still trying very hard. Mentally and emotionally, I have moved on. So that's good news. Bad news is, my previous (considered 'previous' or 'ex', but obviously not so to 'that' person) partner is still in a state of heavy denial and he is definitely not letting me GO...... even after all these months......arrrrrgghhhh....... I pray for divine intervention...
For Goal Number 3:
Currently I am more ready to voice myself without feeling shy. I am also more realistic about the way things go in this mortal world. Not cynical but definitely realistic. I feel this has been a good change.
posted by Queen Bee at 2:05 PM
15 Comments:
HAHAHA....I'm not laughing at you but laughing at the fact that the world is so similar....and yes, the fact that you have a flair of making things that bother you sound trivial and funny...
I changed jobs, am loving the new one.
Can't do anything as radical with my hairstyle. But I know what you mean by someone not letting go. There are times when you seriously want to carry out a hit on them. Maybe you should.
I can't be smarter. And will not try. Not messing with my genetic make up now. But yes...decisions suck. Especially the ones with both the choices staring you down a kaleidoscope of Utopia...
Wow, Wow, Wow!
Oh, before I say anything... Hand me that gold, because I am first!
Hahahahaha...
"I don't want to sell my life for a job..."
Great thinking. As a software engineer, there have been times when I had to work through the so-called "impossible" dead-lines. Although that is fine for an adrenaline rush once in a while, one should never let it become the order of the day.
Either way, what is important is to enjoy whatever you do. :)
"I put time aside for friends and myself."
Way to go, sweetheart! Give me a call sometime, will you? Hahahaha... just kidding.
"In the effort towards the status of singlehood, I am still trying very hard."
Hmmm... In my case, I have almost decided to retire on that count. Since nobody seems to want me, I have decided to stop trying. Hahaha!
Your former partner is in denial? Of course, he is male. Denial is the symptom of every male.
But you know, it is generally something that will go away if you effectively ignore it for long. :D
And the third goal was a total WOW! Yes, it is good to see the change in you. So now we have the New, Improved Queen Bee!
See how much I worked for that piece of gold? ;) Hahahaha!
Cheers!
Yeah for change in a good direction!
I'd love to see your hair though. I'm trying to figure out a new summer do, but can't bring myself to cut it off yet. Did you go short? Or just different?
I hope you find a new job. One you like...I like my job most days...today was an ok day.
Glad to hear you found your voice...it's always nice when a person can do that. Now use it !
WB 'NEW' Queen!
I missed ya and it's certainly good to see that u have further developed some of ur personal skills :) Good for u girl!
Abt being single...consider urself pretty smart..lol my married cousins r telling me that all the time :)
Keshi.
@Harjee Kapur:
Hi, Harjee! You sound like a jovial person too ;)
Great that you are enjoying your new job. Not a many people have a chance to enjoy theirs :)
Yes, sometimes I want to hit out but I have to control myself... I can only cartoon the act in my mind. :P
Decisions are really tough sometimes. And judging from some of my problems that refuse to go away, I have to decide among lose-lose options. No win-win ones...
@Pradeep:
There's a saying that there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow... I suppose having the sun to smile sweetly and gently after a rainfall and creating a beautiful rainbow are two pots of gold already. Ha ha ha... and my friend Pradeep, your cheers are the third pot of gold! :))))
(p.s. you might want to scroll down and read the comment for keshi too)
@Kimmy:
I had straights and perms all roll into one. Ha ha. Pretty versatile! Some days, I am demure, some days, I am messy... hee hee
@Keshi:
Ha ha ha, yes! Singles are smart and blessed! I read somewhere that God created us differently. For a special group of us, he made us singles so that we can focus our efforts and channel them differently towards Him. In fact, He did urge that those who can, should try their best to be single.
Personally, I would like to have a partner but if circumstances are that I can't, then I suppose I am part of the special group whom God has created to focus on our great divine. :))) There's so much to learn about loving the many people around us, than to have the bulk of love for just one person, unless of course our hearts are so big that they can encompass great overflowing love for many many...
A journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step and you have started with the right foot. Way to go woman!!
hmmmmm lot of things going on at the same time.....but ur on rt track....abt working...ur absolutely rt.....u if can't enjoy other things cozz of ur work then it isn't worth it..........i hope u get what u want :)) tccc
Queen u got a great point there...the love must be shared!
**He did urge that those who can, should try their best to be single.
great...now I have a very valid DIVINE reason to tell my mum when she gets pissed abt my single life..lol thanks hun!
Keshi.
@White Magpie & Jackal:
Thanks for the encouragement! :)))
@Keshi:
Hi! I found the exact text in the
Bible. Thought I will share it with you ;) It is under 1 Corinthians 7:1 to 40
oh ok thanks!
Keshi.
Dear QB,
Thank you for those sweet words, you are a wonderful woman. You don't even know how much your words honor me.
You consider my cheers a pot of gold? Well then, hope you are ready to become one of the richest people on earth, because my cheers will not stop coming your way. :)
Re: Remaining single
You know, I cannot particularly feel "Blessed" when someone rejects my love, specially in favor of some hunk. :)
But yeah, I do realize that I belong to a particularly special group of people called "The Rejects". Hahahaha!
Great! Even the Bible gives them yet another excuse to reject people who truly love them. Oh well... LOL
Cheers, my dear friend :)
(Hugggggggggggggggggggggzz)
You ROCK QB!!!!! Will you please e-mail me a pic of your new hair? I would love to see it!
xoxo,
Megs
ok this is a reall nice post...loved reading it...was gettin very bored, but read this and felt good...ok, I am happy that u are moving on...but felt good that there are a few like me too:)
1.don't let ur job take up all ur time, yes, life has more than work to offer...but u already know that:)
2.I pray for u too!!:) and nice to know that u are taking efforts to get back to ur old frnds, it will be tough intially, but trust me worth the efforts:) and ofcourse ur hobby...
3.". I am also more realistic about the way things go in this mortal world"...great!!!
@Pradeep:
Thanks for the big hug!
We are not the rejects! We are just different :)))) haha
@Megan:
Haha, ok ;P
@Yashita:
That's one positive attribute of blogging ;) We cheer each other up and keep us going despite the odds :)))
"We" are not the rejects!
"I" am!
:)
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